"It’s like my very first memory, which I guess is the first time I was aware that I was alive. My mom and my Aunt Helen took me to the zoo. I think I was three. I don’t remember that part. Anyway, we were watching these two cows. A mother cow and its baby calf. And they didn’t have a lot of room to walk around. Anyway, the baby calf was standing right underneath its mother, just kind of walking around, and the mother cow took a “dump” on the baby calf’s head. I thought it was the funniest thing I had ever seen in the whole world, and I laughed about it for three hours."

Part 2, page 85.
@2 years ago

"I swear to God, we almost died."

Part 2, page 83.
@2 years ago

"I don’t know. I’m just thinking too fast. Much too fast."

Part 2, page 76.
@2 years ago with 2 notes

"..I’m trying not to think about it too much because that makes it worse.
It’s kind of like when you look at yourself in the mirror and you say your name. And it gets to a point where none of it seems real. Well, sometimes, I can do that, but I don’t need an hour in front of a mirror. It happens very fast, and things start to slip away. And I just open my eyes, and I see nothing. And then I start to breathe really hard trying to see something, but I can’t. It doesn’t happen all the time, but when it does, it scares me."

Part 2, page 74.
@2 years ago with 15 notes

"So, instead I spent today walking around the neighborhood. I even got out my old sled and my old scarf. There is something cozy about that for me."

Part 2, page 73.
@2 years ago

"My grandma is very old, and she doesn’t remember things a lot, but she bakes the most delicious cookies. When I was very little, we had my mom’s mom, who always had candy, and my dad’s mom, who always had cookies. My mom told me that when I was little, I called them “Candy Grandma” and “Cookies Grandma.” I also called pizza crust “pizza bones.” I don’t know why I’m telling you this."

Part 2, page 85.
@2 years ago with 3 notes

"Then again, maybe my whole family has been high, and we just don’t tell each other these things."

Part 2, page 82.
@2 years ago with 3 notes

"I probably shouldn’t be writing about this too much because it brings it up too much. It makes me think too much. And I am trying to participate."

Part 2, page 74.
@2 years ago

"There were a lot of little kids there. I watched them flying. Doing jumps and having races. And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday. And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do. And they will all kiss someone someday. But for now, sledding is enough. I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn’t."

Part 2, page 73 and 74.
@2 years ago with 8 notes

"..I can still remember Sam’s kiss. It feels so peaceful and right. I even considered not washing my lips like they do on TV, but then I thought it would get too gross."

Part 2, page 73.
@2 years ago with 2 notes